I’d try to explain that it’s not really negativity or sadness anymore, it’s more just this detached, meaningless fog where you can’t feel anything about anything — even the things you love, even fun things — and you’re horribly bored and lonely.
what do people get out of being mean to strangers? I dont understand. does it give you that rush of adrenaline you were looking for or are you really just going to live the rest of your life as a miserable excuse for a human being
This one teacher literally hates everyone and is so awkwars he wont even look at u in the hallways but he’ll say hi to me and talks to me and always checks up on me bc he knows about my anxiety and is legitimately worried for me ad sigh